Today was a sad day

Today I felt sad. I've had an elementary school friend named Rama. He had a funny nickname, it is Acar/Ecer which means Pickle. Beside his kind and humbleness, another thing that remind me of him is a metallic green Vespa motorcycle his father used to own and took him to school everyday. It was an old Vespa, caused them a lot of trouble (esecially when igniting the engine), yet looks so comfortable in its own way.

Today I won't talk about him, I am going to talk about another Rama. My friend which I first met during my highschool year. We still talked and shared a lot of thoughts until today. In fact, after I write this, I expect to meet him in a small coffee shop in south Surabaya. This Rama loves a lot of things. He fascinate me most of the times whenever he shoed his love and compassion, something that I find lacking in me. This morning, he shared a physicological article about the top happy countries, and encourage me to pursue my study there. I asked him to do the same as well, and the answer reminds 8 years ago. The reason which made him couldn't really pursue what he wanted to.

Sometimes, it really is hard to accept that life has his own fairness, in its own way. Even for a priviledged like me.

This afternoon, I drove my mother to Tunjungan Plaza, right after she finished her work in her office. She planned to buy certain jacket and other wears for her trip overseas. It was really crowded, and quite hard to find a parking spot, but in the end, we managed to park in a really tight spot where I had to slip through the backdoor just to get out of the car. Through the mall, I've seen a lot of happy faces, well suited men and women, some with their children. However, it still couldn't get on my logic how people pursue to stand above others, how they were so absorbed in consumerism, and how the other have to "lower" themselves to make a living. I've had a discussion with Rama about how people pursue to become elites, and we still couldn't find a satisfying answer. Is it really hard just to stand on the same ground? Well, I've never really liked crowded shopping malls anyway, yet today was a very, very sad day.